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Name: jill
Location: Redding, California, United States
Birthday: 10/1/1984
Gender: Female
Interests: I am Jill. I am the coolest Jill you will ever meet. I love vee-wees and spam and seeking the Lord with all my heart. He has done amazing things in my life and i can only pray that i can show His love to others and fullfill my purpose here on earth. What else is there to say? Well knowing me, there is always more to say!
I love meeting new people and making new friends. Of course the cheesiest thing ever! Also eating awesome food, which means pretty much anything. And threatening Raena Cooper, cuz i could totally take her! And eating all of ashley's food, cuz she's the best roomie ever.
Expertise: Being cool!
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
MSN: spameater84
Yahoo:  spameater84
Member Since:
12/5/2004
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| So, i have been an emotional wreck the past few days. And that doesnt usually happen to me. Im a pretty stable person, but it always happens when i have to leave the people i love! I cant take separation!!!!! well, that might be slightly overstated but its hard! i dont even know if i want to go back to school! but i know i need to and i have the support of everyone around me. which makes the biggest difference in the world!
the Lord has really shown me where i need to place my priorities and who is important in my life. and if i wait on Him, the rest of my life will fall into place. i cant rush things and im not going to. but thats where being human comes back and bites me in the butt! i want to do things my way, and the way that seems the easiest, but that will never work. and i learn this lesson everyday. i know God has me in the palm of His hand, and that he will never let me go!
so to everyone, i just need prayer for the courage and stamina to stay on the path the Lord has put me on. i know that next week is a new week and i will be back at school, with friends and fellowship, something that i honestly have missed! even though it is the most amazing thing to have fellowship with your boyfriend (ahem, benjamin) and i love that too! i just know that i am constantly a changing person, everyday. im not even the same person that left school in april, or the same person who left romania in july!
its not that i feel lost, i just feel like i let myself slip away from God. the other morning i stopped to listen to the Lord, what a concept. and i was immediately shown this picture of me and Jesus walking down a path, hand in hand. i asked him where we were going and he said 'anywhere'. and that is where my confidence comes from and where i need to turn back to when times get tough, or even when they are good!
i love all my friends and family to death, but God is number one! pray for me and encourage me people, i need it, im weak.
<>< love, jill
p.s. i love you benjamin and i couldnt ask for more! | | |
| So last night i spent some intense time with the Lord, laying it all
out on the table. And guess what..........it was amazing. Go figure!
The Lord truly picks me back up every time. I prayed about everything
that was on my mind because frankly, i dont need to worry about life,
He will take care of everything. The only thing i can do is pray for
people and about my circumstances and be the christian that i know i
need to be. What else would i want to be? Sadly the answer to that
question is often times something else, like i want to be cool, like by
everyone, feel so beautiful that i knock the supermodels out of the
water :)! But knowing thats never going to happen is ok with me. Thats
not what i want to strive to be.
I want to be someone who shows Christ's love inside and out in all that
i do. I pray that for everyone! Thanks to Katrina and her willingness
to share Colossians 3 with us, i was reminded of God's love and
assurance. This passage gives us the blueprints for the people that we
need to be. Cast aside your anger, forget past wrongs. Forgive people
and dont judge them! Jesus loved everyone and in the end we will all be
judged the same. The difference will be whether or not we have Christ
in our hearts and it is our duty, i feel, to share that with everyone
possible.
Last night i was reading through Ezekiel (out loud by the way which
gave me a whole new perspective) and i was struck by God's wrath
against the unbeleiving people who just refused to acknowledge Him as
Soverieng Lord. And we are living in a world today that is no different
than that. Friends, we need to share about the Lord.
"When i say to a wicked man 'You will surely die die,' and you do not
warn him or speak out to dissuade him from his evil ways in order to
save his life, that wicked man will die for his sin, and i will hold
you accountable for his blood" Ezekiel 3:18
I know that i was convicted by that verse. How many times have i known
someone is making a wrong choice and never said anything? More than i
would like to remember. No longer am i going to be afraid, and i would
encourage you to not be afraid either. What do we have to lose? I would
say considering we have eternal life and get to eat with the King
forever, we dont have too much to lose.
Love the people your around and try to see them as Christ sees them,
beleivers or not. Just remember that God loves you, its everlasting and
amazing!
<>< love, jill | | |
| So i figured i should probably write about my experience in Romania.
The problem is is that i could go on and on and never stop. And i know
there are so many people who aren't even going to read it. Or worse,
read it and have it not mean anything. But you know, i didn't go on
this trip for other people and i wouldnt be sharing this stuff for
other people either. I went to Romania because i had an obligation, a
privelege really, to go and fulfill the command to go out into the
world and preach the gospel. Now, we didnt excactly preach the gospel,
but we reached kids and homeless people on other countless ways.
I know that some people don't understand why christians go out as
missionaries all over the world to share God's love. It probably seems
like there is so much more we could be doing, like finding them jobs,
finding the houses, getting them money, bettering their situations,
changing the government. All these are find and dandy, but its not what
people need. How can we be so arrogant as to say that all people need
are food, shelter and money! These are priveleges that the King has
given to us because He has created us. All we need in this world is
Him. You can give people all the food and substance and money in the
world, but it wont fullfill them for life, for eternity. Therefore it
would be pointless to give them the things of this world, the Lord can
give them eternal life and treasures in heaven!
" For He has
rescued us from the dominion of darkness and brought us into the
kingdom of the Son he loves, in whom we have redemption, the
forgiveness of sins." Colossians 1: 13-14
We experienced many
happy, sad, dark, amazing, lovely moments in our time in Romania. The
kids that we worked with in Rosiori were so beautiful, full of life
despite everything that they have been through. They have never known
the kind of love that is real. Only the kind of love that constitutes
getting a reward, or being higher up on the foodchain. It seemed like
we weren't there for long enough at all! I am going to miss all the
little boys dearly! God really placed a burden on my heart for the boys
at the Ploska school. I have so many special friends now who i am going
to remember for the rest of my life.
The people in Constanta
were very different. It was a whole new ministry there a very
challenging one. The street kids that we worked with were very "hard".
Some of them were second generation street kids. Can you imagine that?
Having parents who dont know love themselves, still having the mind of
a 15 year old. Many of them got high on glue as we were talking to
them. The greatest feeling though was when they started telling you
about Jesus and then you realize that the light you though you saw in
their eyes was real. The same Jesus for them is the same Jesus for us.
All across the world.
One peice of sad news is that one of
the young men we met and fellowshipped with died on friday. He was
twenty and apparently he drowned in the black sea. It was so hard to
hear, we had just seen him on monday with a huge smile on his face
talking to us with his heart out in the open. Im confident though that
i will see my brother in heaven. Praise the Lord for salvation!
Please dont question what the Lord calls missionaries to do, rather ask
the Lord what he would have you do and how He wants you to further the
kingdom. We are all missionaries wherever we are. Dont forget that!
<>< love, jill | | |
| Life has been so good lately and i can only think of one reason why.
And that is because i am finally giving God the authority in my life.
What a release it is to know that i dont have to worry about where im
going or what i will do, my life is in His hands and He loves me
unconditionally. It is such an awesome promise to know that no matter
how many times i slip, He will always catch me. I cant even put into
words how happy i am. And the funny is that people around me notice it
too. To finally look at life in a positive way and not obsess over
things that i used to is a big step. Those of you who know me well know
what im talking about.
I was in major bondage and over the break, i finally let the girl that
i used to be go. I am not her anymore and i never will be. Jesus is my
guide and i will no longer let anyone or anything rule my life or
invade my thoughts day after day. And i am confident that i can because
He can. God has been working on my heart for a long time and even
though my back was turned from Him, He never looked away and He waited
until i was ready to make a change.
Thank you Lord for your blessings!
For the passion that you have given me.
I am so unworthy of anything, but as Your child, You have called me to service.
Lead me where You will, i pray for humility, and i thank You for grace.
Now is the time to reach the world with the good news. Not to be sappy
about it at all. This is a scary issue and their is spiritual warfare
going on right now all over the world. Are we as christians ready to
stand up and be witnesses? Or will we be comfortable where we are safe
and happy?
Dont be afraid of a challenge. Pray for one! Take a leap of faith,
reach out to your brothers and sister whether they are beleivers or
not. Thats what Jesus did. I pray you take this step with me. Continue
to pray for me and continue to pray for the Lord's will to be done in
this world.
<>< jill | | |
| i wonder if i can figure out this picture thing...........
actually i can, but i think im too lazy
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